I’ve been pretty quiet lately. I’m in a time in my life where so much is uncertain and I’ve been forced to do some major reflecting.
Reflection can be difficult for me because it often means taking a look at the things that, quite honestly, I would rather not look at it. But, I realize how incredibly important it is.
I have the following immediate goals:
1) Going back and looking at the (biggest) things that have caused me hurt in my life. I’m going to think about them, feel whatever emotions come to surface, deal with them, and close the door.
2) I’m going to list the people that have hurt me deeply. I’ve always considered myself someone who forgives easily. But I’ve found that when someone wounds you deeply, it really isn’t easy to let go of the hurt. I HATE to hold on to things. I really don’t like to think of someone negatively. But, when those hurts keep popping back up into your heart and mind, you truly haven’t forgiven. The truth is, that unforgiveness hurts you far worse than it does the one you have been hurt by.
3) There are things and my people from my past that I have to say goodbye to.
I’m pretty certain that this process isn’t going to be pretty, but I know in my heart that I cannot move forward in my life without dealing with these things. I hope I’m brave enough to share some of my feelings as I go through this process.
What about you?? What things have you found that you just can’t get past? What things are holding you back from moving forward in your life?
Being stuck in the past is like walking forward with your back facing the front. You will always miss out on what’s in front of you – unknown